haiz..只能闭上无聊的眼神，说着没关系，
为那些应今天而推掉的活动后悔与哀悼，
无奈平安的时间无声无息悄悄地流逝，
或可随手拿个怀表自己静静地倒数，
又或可找间杂吵的pub自己喝杯volka,
也可独自找个幽静但能缭望热闹街市的天台，
等着烟火的出现，等着圣诞的来临。
but seriously, i just want to stay on my bed& set 0:00 alarm,
let me know the chrimas is came and...and...and...continue to sleep...
就只是太无聊（奈），来吹吹水。
Friday, December 23, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
After that, then that !
13 hours ago,we were above the cloud,stucked in the low-cost airline tiny seats.And now,we're moving on.
It was a really great,fun and surprising trip.Although I kinda disappointed that we didn't visit the Kinabalu National Park,and didn't dive,and didn't parasail...
We got into the water alot,salted or not.So no wonder money flows like it.
My neck,shoulder and back are hurting,probably got it from the jet-ski and flight.Aww.........
I miss it,very very much.The sad thing about going to a vacation is finishing it.Now that it's done,all we can do is waiting for the next one,if it's going to be any sooner.
One of our precious member - Green,got a very big surprise yesterday,I wasn't aware but when I realized what was going on,I shouted "Oh my god !".Now he is,everyone is waiting for an answer......Sick do lah.
Besides from moving on,we can start planning the next trip - Climb the Mount Kinabalu,I suggest next year's May/June.Looking forward to it !
P.S Have a nice life.I love you all,expecially you.
It was a really great,fun and surprising trip.Although I kinda disappointed that we didn't visit the Kinabalu National Park,and didn't dive,and didn't parasail...
We got into the water alot,salted or not.So no wonder money flows like it.
My neck,shoulder and back are hurting,probably got it from the jet-ski and flight.Aww.........
I miss it,very very much.The sad thing about going to a vacation is finishing it.Now that it's done,all we can do is waiting for the next one,if it's going to be any sooner.
One of our precious member - Green,got a very big surprise yesterday,I wasn't aware but when I realized what was going on,I shouted "Oh my god !".Now he is,everyone is waiting for an answer......Sick do lah.
Besides from moving on,we can start planning the next trip - Climb the Mount Kinabalu,I suggest next year's May/June.Looking forward to it !
P.S Have a nice life.I love you all,expecially you.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Rolling in the sheet
I love Adele's songs,especially Rolling in the deep.
I know it's old,but I do listen to it occasionally.Though I don't know what its lyric means,what is "rolling in the deep" exactly? No idea.
But I do know what is "rolling in the bed...........naked".
I don't do that.
OK! OK!
I did it a couple of time,trice actually,4 times to be honest.......Fxxk it,who remembers that?
So yesterday Soup,Xinong,Hendre and I went out for a drink,2 drinks each actually.The first place we hit was Wings music cafe,it's really good to talk while someone's singing for you,you shout louder and it makes your adrenaline rate raise faster,making you more excited.
Then we crushed the Overtime,not a descent place.
People were talking so loud,myself included.Actually I don't understand why people pay so much for a beer,I understand it tastes better than Carslberg or Tiger and shit,but standing in a garage doesn't make u a car rite? In the end,it still tastes like piss,politely put - Urine.
See? Get it? change of words but the meaning is still the same,still disgusting.
Counted,I've spent RM270 in just short 28 hours.
Without a job,I have no time to waste,literally.Because my time is not productive,"waste" is a big word for me.
Katy Perry, I feel like a total plastic bag rite now.
We have our lives to live.But not as rainbow-ish as we thought it would be.Hanging out is just a way to bury my loneliness.I feel excited about what's coming up next,but I'm not entirely OK with it.
Plus! I accidentally walked in to a ladies room last nite,I really shouldn't drink.
P.S If you don't like me,just hate me or whatever.
I know it's old,but I do listen to it occasionally.Though I don't know what its lyric means,what is "rolling in the deep" exactly? No idea.
But I do know what is "rolling in the bed...........naked".
I don't do that.
OK! OK!
I did it a couple of time,trice actually,4 times to be honest.......Fxxk it,who remembers that?
So yesterday Soup,Xinong,Hendre and I went out for a drink,2 drinks each actually.The first place we hit was Wings music cafe,it's really good to talk while someone's singing for you,you shout louder and it makes your adrenaline rate raise faster,making you more excited.
Then we crushed the Overtime,not a descent place.
People were talking so loud,myself included.Actually I don't understand why people pay so much for a beer,I understand it tastes better than Carslberg or Tiger and shit,but standing in a garage doesn't make u a car rite? In the end,it still tastes like piss,politely put - Urine.
See? Get it? change of words but the meaning is still the same,still disgusting.
Counted,I've spent RM270 in just short 28 hours.
Without a job,I have no time to waste,literally.Because my time is not productive,"waste" is a big word for me.
Katy Perry, I feel like a total plastic bag rite now.
We have our lives to live.But not as rainbow-ish as we thought it would be.Hanging out is just a way to bury my loneliness.I feel excited about what's coming up next,but I'm not entirely OK with it.
Plus! I accidentally walked in to a ladies room last nite,I really shouldn't drink.
P.S If you don't like me,just hate me or whatever.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
我觉得右边那张照片里面的女生很漂亮也
=）
好吧，
连我们最hardworking的hean都要离开这个角落了
zinc应该在准备考试了吧
祝你考试的题目会出的比较简单
看到你
就觉得我很渺小
希望我以后真的有一位讲师朋友
=）
hean工作了吗??
你没写
是没有ba
VNM la
再找吧
os自己在做老板
只是under一个妈妈
顾shop
ming&妈妈一起工作
一份很简单很舒服的工作
珍惜阿
KFC一边追电视剧一边养病ba
ho???
不懂呢
不要忍住病不看医生阿
ivan打games咯
我只想到这个而已
如果你戒了
我会替你开心的
明年好好读阿
xin也是工作
除了工作还是工作
也很少出来了
大家都各自生活各自快乐
只是不懂有多精彩
=）
人生是美好的
=）
好吧，
连我们最hardworking的hean都要离开这个角落了
zinc应该在准备考试了吧
祝你考试的题目会出的比较简单
看到你
就觉得我很渺小
希望我以后真的有一位讲师朋友
=）
hean工作了吗??
你没写
是没有ba
VNM la
再找吧
os自己在做老板
只是under一个妈妈
顾shop
ming&妈妈一起工作
一份很简单很舒服的工作
珍惜阿
KFC一边追电视剧一边养病ba
ho???
不懂呢
不要忍住病不看医生阿
ivan打games咯
我只想到这个而已
如果你戒了
我会替你开心的
明年好好读阿
xin也是工作
除了工作还是工作
也很少出来了
大家都各自生活各自快乐
只是不懂有多精彩
=）
人生是美好的
Monday, November 28, 2011
Seriously
Don't worry,I ain't gon recycle any shit I wrote in my personal blog,that's for sure.
I wish nothing more but jz u guys put some effort in posting anything to our blog.This blog.
I literally meant it, if u hav a naked pic of mine,post it!
Seriously!? what's wrong with u guys? 15 minutes wouldn't hurt.
P.S Seriously?!?
I wish nothing more but jz u guys put some effort in posting anything to our blog.This blog.
I literally meant it, if u hav a naked pic of mine,post it!
Seriously!? what's wrong with u guys? 15 minutes wouldn't hurt.
P.S Seriously?!?
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Friday, November 25, 2011
Don't mind haters
Went to Sunway Pyramid today with Green and Zinc,as a pre-celebration hang out for Green's bday.
After lunch and some window shopping,Green n I served as wingmen to accompany Zinc to Sunway University,asking for some ACCA's info and you know,straight A students' stuff.
The adviser lady went through some brief idea plantation,for like.......more than half an hour.
I ain't grumbling, juz......forget it.
Here are some new vocabs I'd like to introduce to u:
Racist: someone who has opinions about others' colours and languages.And someone who obsessed with other races' cocks.
Hater: who does hate as a habit,and leave nasty comments at other's blogs,facebook pages,vlogs and most importantly, he/she hates him/herself.
Self-abuser: Self-abuse is an extreme fetish.They keep doing what they hate,such as read articals that they think are sucked.And keep doing it over and over,eventually they die in a mental institution.Alone.
Homophobia: Someone who thinks everything is gay,even their parents.And use nasty words against those poor minorities,causing the raise of suicide rate among these ppl.
Nazis: Idiots who tried to take over the world,they're not evil,just plain idiots.
So much for sharing.
And today Green forgot to let down her car's handbreak,no wonder it was lacking boost on the road,eventually it was burnt and smoked.We had to park aside on the road.
And everything almost................................................
P.S Gotta love her panic face.XOXO
After lunch and some window shopping,Green n I served as wingmen to accompany Zinc to Sunway University,asking for some ACCA's info and you know,straight A students' stuff.
The adviser lady went through some brief idea plantation,for like.......more than half an hour.
I ain't grumbling, juz......forget it.
Here are some new vocabs I'd like to introduce to u:
Racist: someone who has opinions about others' colours and languages.And someone who obsessed with other races' cocks.
Hater: who does hate as a habit,and leave nasty comments at other's blogs,facebook pages,vlogs and most importantly, he/she hates him/herself.
Self-abuser: Self-abuse is an extreme fetish.They keep doing what they hate,such as read articals that they think are sucked.And keep doing it over and over,eventually they die in a mental institution.Alone.
Homophobia: Someone who thinks everything is gay,even their parents.And use nasty words against those poor minorities,causing the raise of suicide rate among these ppl.
Nazis: Idiots who tried to take over the world,they're not evil,just plain idiots.
So much for sharing.
And today Green forgot to let down her car's handbreak,no wonder it was lacking boost on the road,eventually it was burnt and smoked.We had to park aside on the road.
And everything almost................................................
P.S Gotta love her panic face.XOXO
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
From here
Most of you can't get what I'm trying to say,but I honestly don't give a shit.
It's a very tiring job to write in Chinese,though my Chinese writing skill is as good as in English,both tremendously meaningful and somehow close-to-you.
I'm frigging bored so don't look bad on me and judge me.For being an unemployed spoiled wastrel.
Dose anyone know this British band called Muse? they're really awesome, you shud check them out. Yes,that's what I'm doing all day,checking these things out...because I have no job!
spent 36 hours watching True Blood season 2,3,4. Yes,I'm in love with vampire stuff...That's why I sent 10 msgs to 10 ppl saying "I'm a vampire".And it's bcuz I was really bored too.
I have so much hate in myself,I don't know wat I'm suppose to do rite now,cuz I've no single clue.
Today is the drama competition's award ceremony at Viva Home,not going cuz they required me to dress like a classic role.Screw them,I dun give a damn whether I'm getting a prize or not.I dunno y my dad asked me to go,maybe he thinks it's important for me.
What I do to you and what I do for you are two very different things.Hope u realise that,my lil bro.
Watching True Blood,they have this sex scene which was kinda intense,the background music was Taylor Swift's song.I tot it was really funny.
I'm a Sagittarius,so I tend to keep my feelings with myself.U guys only see my happy face,others u dun.
And I'm a straight-forward person,I say what I think.
U shut me down,I won't turn back around.
P.S Love is our resistance.
It's a very tiring job to write in Chinese,though my Chinese writing skill is as good as in English,both tremendously meaningful and somehow close-to-you.
I'm frigging bored so don't look bad on me and judge me.For being an unemployed spoiled wastrel.
Dose anyone know this British band called Muse? they're really awesome, you shud check them out. Yes,that's what I'm doing all day,checking these things out...because I have no job!
spent 36 hours watching True Blood season 2,3,4. Yes,I'm in love with vampire stuff...That's why I sent 10 msgs to 10 ppl saying "I'm a vampire".And it's bcuz I was really bored too.
I have so much hate in myself,I don't know wat I'm suppose to do rite now,cuz I've no single clue.
Today is the drama competition's award ceremony at Viva Home,not going cuz they required me to dress like a classic role.Screw them,I dun give a damn whether I'm getting a prize or not.I dunno y my dad asked me to go,maybe he thinks it's important for me.
What I do to you and what I do for you are two very different things.Hope u realise that,my lil bro.
Watching True Blood,they have this sex scene which was kinda intense,the background music was Taylor Swift's song.I tot it was really funny.
I'm a Sagittarius,so I tend to keep my feelings with myself.U guys only see my happy face,others u dun.
And I'm a straight-forward person,I say what I think.
U shut me down,I won't turn back around.
P.S Love is our resistance.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Neither here nor there
Handle me with care,cuz I'm fragile.
Talking about future like we have a clue,like I have a clue.
Not sure how to make decision,juz know I have to make it sooner or later...
I'll take the later deal.
Looking photos back from 2009 to those recent ones,never thought that we changed so much already...I mean,I'm getting hotter and sexier than ever.
Getting used to the idea of joining into the unemploymentline,I'm so screwed.
Feel like something is missing,I mean,I'm not alone all the time.
But I'm always lonely.
Read lots of blogs and facebook's statuses,looks like everyone 's making it the end of everything.
No,it's not.It's a new beginning.
Beginning of your miserable life.
I'm a clean slate now,and I'm ready to be carved by mistakes and dirts.
OMG,it sounded so meaningful,frankly I have no idea of I'm trying to say.
Dolce far niente------learnt from "EAR,PRAY,LOVE",it means "the sweetness of doing nothing".
Better stick with that first.
Although even my mum asked me to get a job.
Where should I start?
P.S If you gotta love somebody,love them all the same.
Talking about future like we have a clue,like I have a clue.
Not sure how to make decision,juz know I have to make it sooner or later...
I'll take the later deal.
Looking photos back from 2009 to those recent ones,never thought that we changed so much already...I mean,I'm getting hotter and sexier than ever.
Getting used to the idea of joining into the unemploymentline,I'm so screwed.
Feel like something is missing,I mean,I'm not alone all the time.
But I'm always lonely.
Read lots of blogs and facebook's statuses,looks like everyone 's making it the end of everything.
No,it's not.It's a new beginning.
Beginning of your miserable life.
I'm a clean slate now,and I'm ready to be carved by mistakes and dirts.
OMG,it sounded so meaningful,frankly I have no idea of I'm trying to say.
Dolce far niente------learnt from "EAR,PRAY,LOVE",it means "the sweetness of doing nothing".
Better stick with that first.
Although even my mum asked me to get a job.
Where should I start?
P.S If you gotta love somebody,love them all the same.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
那些年
又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终於来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片 无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约
又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美
好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后
故意讨你温柔的吗
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
P.S 我发现,只要改一点点,就可当毕业歌了...
2年来,最吸引我的华语歌...
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终於来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片 无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约
又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美
好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后
故意讨你温柔的吗
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你
那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
P.S 我发现,只要改一点点,就可当毕业歌了...
2年来,最吸引我的华语歌...
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Season finale
OK ok, it's the final episode of season 6 <<Your High School life>>. Airing on the date 5/11/2011.
Cheats,lies,tears,regrets,relief,disappointments,lights,determination,definition,love, hate,friendship,relationship,recognition,denial,acception and classification. All boil down this very day.
Then we will look back one day,amused by everything we ever had.
Life gets people,it always does.
I predict that on the graduation day, we'll be all sad and crying,making promises to see each other,and NEVER LOSE TOUCH.Knowing that they can't be kept long.
The least we can do is try. And I'll keep trying,forever.
But before that,we'll have to deal with UEC.
Everyone, GO FORTH!
Before we face anymore twists and turns,we get riddle from the past events to solve.
For the unknown lasting time of our unbreakable bond,I will it to be more challenging for our friendship. After all we have come to term with being comfortable with the uncomfortable.
The show is not over, it's just a cliffhanger.
P.S holding on to what I haven't got,and everything WE ever had.
Cheats,lies,tears,regrets,relief,disappointments,lights,determination,definition,love, hate,friendship,relationship,recognition,denial,acception and classification. All boil down this very day.
Then we will look back one day,amused by everything we ever had.
Life gets people,it always does.
I predict that on the graduation day, we'll be all sad and crying,making promises to see each other,and NEVER LOSE TOUCH.Knowing that they can't be kept long.
The least we can do is try. And I'll keep trying,forever.
But before that,we'll have to deal with UEC.
Everyone, GO FORTH!
Before we face anymore twists and turns,we get riddle from the past events to solve.
For the unknown lasting time of our unbreakable bond,I will it to be more challenging for our friendship. After all we have come to term with being comfortable with the uncomfortable.
The show is not over, it's just a cliffhanger.
P.S holding on to what I haven't got,and everything WE ever had.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
So sad it's almost tragic
把我的悲伤,留给自己(不懂做么打不到句号)
你的也可以给我一点,让我帮你分担下,反正我都很衰了...我一个人死好过两个人死
大家不要担心,我只是最近有点sentimental......
很多人很喜欢看韩剧,我却慢慢讨厌它(电影不算)
为什么?让我来帮你分析一下:
男主角,女主角相识相恋,爱得死去活来,高潮迭起.
突然间杀出他们其中一个的前度男女朋友,出来搞破坏,身为观众的我还真想把我隔壁的烟灰缸丢过去...
可是如果没有他们,韩剧就不好看了.....男女主角必需用"爱"排除万难,把他们逼向墙角,甩尽眼泪和大喊:"oppa! oppa! sarangheiyo! wei gu deh? wei yo? chu got soh!!! e...e...err....!!!"
当他们这样的时候,就满足了观众的变态心理,白马王子与公主终于在一起了,而配角们都会突然领悟"真谛"和大方接受......现实中,他们都会泼主角们镪水...
So sad it's almost tragic.
毕业考结束,考得不对...
有一半不及格,很不爽,不爽到......想...想变爽..?..
p.s you know you love me, XOXO.
你的也可以给我一点,让我帮你分担下,反正我都很衰了...我一个人死好过两个人死
大家不要担心,我只是最近有点sentimental......
很多人很喜欢看韩剧,我却慢慢讨厌它(电影不算)
为什么?让我来帮你分析一下:
男主角,女主角相识相恋,爱得死去活来,高潮迭起.
突然间杀出他们其中一个的前度男女朋友,出来搞破坏,身为观众的我还真想把我隔壁的烟灰缸丢过去...
可是如果没有他们,韩剧就不好看了.....男女主角必需用"爱"排除万难,把他们逼向墙角,甩尽眼泪和大喊:"oppa! oppa! sarangheiyo! wei gu deh? wei yo? chu got soh!!! e...e...err....!!!"
当他们这样的时候,就满足了观众的变态心理,白马王子与公主终于在一起了,而配角们都会突然领悟"真谛"和大方接受......现实中,他们都会泼主角们镪水...
So sad it's almost tragic.
毕业考结束,考得不对...
有一半不及格,很不爽,不爽到......想...想变爽..?..
p.s you know you love me, XOXO.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
I am So Horny
I dunno y,I'm so horny all the time.
Maybe it's the graduation thing gettin on my nerve.
I juz wanna like watch dramas n movies n porns to forget the coming exam,the Judgement day.10 answer sheets,will do the judging of my 3 years study or whatever it is.
I act totally cool but I'm actually freaking the fuck out.
Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit or shits.
I dun wanna leave high school,but I'm actually kinda excited about it.
I dunno what I'm thinkin but is college really necessary? Well,since 90% of high skul graduates r going, it kinda does.
But I wanna juz get a job n earn money then go on travelling.
I wanna scream on the highest spot of Machu Picchu.
Surfing at the beaches in California.
Tanning under the sun of Bali.
Explore the subway system in New York.
Backpacking in wherever and being forced to not shower over a week.
And I dun think I can do all that with packages.
Oh my god! I'm not even graduated yet and I'm talkin all this shit here.
Exams really kill ppl.
I dun wanna start everything witn an "I".
I...oh shit, Idid it again.
So mess up I am.
Whatever,I don't care.
Hey,what if I purposely fail my exam and that'll leave me no choice so I can do all those things?
Brilliant but Nah...life is too short,so why rush to to dream instead of take the longest way around?
We all end up dead either way,so fuck it.
I personally think that to die is the greatest adventure of my life.Bcuz I'm dying every second and everyone does too.
But no one lives like dying,everyone juz so concern about what other ppl think,it's how the world works.
When we graduated frm primary skul,what then?
probably 40 plus days frm nw, what now?
After 3/4 years of college,what then?
Life is a bitch,and it's fantastic.
P.S I'm seriously thinking about pursuing writing shit as a future carreer of mine.
Maybe it's the graduation thing gettin on my nerve.
I juz wanna like watch dramas n movies n porns to forget the coming exam,the Judgement day.10 answer sheets,will do the judging of my 3 years study or whatever it is.
I act totally cool but I'm actually freaking the fuck out.
Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit or shits.
I dun wanna leave high school,but I'm actually kinda excited about it.
I dunno what I'm thinkin but is college really necessary? Well,since 90% of high skul graduates r going, it kinda does.
But I wanna juz get a job n earn money then go on travelling.
I wanna scream on the highest spot of Machu Picchu.
Surfing at the beaches in California.
Tanning under the sun of Bali.
Explore the subway system in New York.
Backpacking in wherever and being forced to not shower over a week.
And I dun think I can do all that with packages.
Oh my god! I'm not even graduated yet and I'm talkin all this shit here.
Exams really kill ppl.
I dun wanna start everything witn an "I".
I...oh shit, Idid it again.
So mess up I am.
Whatever,I don't care.
Hey,what if I purposely fail my exam and that'll leave me no choice so I can do all those things?
Brilliant but Nah...life is too short,so why rush to to dream instead of take the longest way around?
We all end up dead either way,so fuck it.
I personally think that to die is the greatest adventure of my life.Bcuz I'm dying every second and everyone does too.
But no one lives like dying,everyone juz so concern about what other ppl think,it's how the world works.
When we graduated frm primary skul,what then?
probably 40 plus days frm nw, what now?
After 3/4 years of college,what then?
Life is a bitch,and it's fantastic.
P.S I'm seriously thinking about pursuing writing shit as a future carreer of mine.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
The day of Silent
上个星期学校假期，正是个欠打的假期...无所事事又无聊透顶的我，除了睡当然就是咬咯...
结果咬到牙龈痛...就拼命忍了...真的痛到发烧发痒发癫，fa!
我就告诉我妈说：妈！我终于懂你生我时候的痛了！
（妈：省点吧！）
为了让我从发狂的情绪冷静下来，我只好转成无声状态。
所以假期里，从一个每晚聊skype的我变成每天开着skype看着天花板呆子；
又从每天6餐（早餐，午餐，晚餐，下午茶，宵夜在加通宵妈麽）变到每天两餐；
从午餐晚餐2碗饭加1碗汤再加点心零食变到半饭加汤...+_+
因我因不舒服而没去上课，
晚上我回学校，带着无语的心情回宿舍。
hand不在，感觉osyter好像想跟我讲话，
但他知道他会好对着一道墙讲话,
就感觉他好像很无奈将...
9月6日 星期二
从早上到下午，都感觉时间过得好慢，
就觉的是不是是最近的天气是不是太热把我给闷晕了，
结果当然就不是。
我发现我好像很陶醉于沉默了，
静静看着周遭说发生的事。
除了陶醉，也很开心不用站起来回答问题。
9月7日 星期三
我依然是如此。
在上课的时候，
有个人问我：你开嘴不怕口臭啊？！
我：不用紧，我有刷牙。你一直开嘴不怕发霉啊？
他：不怕，我都没刷牙的...+_+
我发现原来时间很慢过时因为说话，
我平常把太多的时间放在聊天了,
随着减少说话，时间也变多了。
所以换作是做我后面的那个的话，
她应该很快就闷死咯！
我不说就不说，但在晚间自习时，我却被一个人弄到很想对他说话，
他真的有种让我很想说话冲动...
还好还是忍下来了。
9月8日 星期四
我心里面开始有一种像是感觉还是什么的，
它会让我想表达事情的时候，提醒或阻止我说话，
让我觉得说话时错的那样...
我就开始觉得应该够了，
这时间已足够让我思考很多事了。
我想如果继续这样下去，
迟早有一天，早上起来时，
我会发不了声音，
从此患上心理障碍型哑巴了...
9月9日 星期五
我终于结束了几天的沉默，
说起来也真好笑，
我说起话来竟然会觉的很不习惯...
这真是一个很不错的玩法，
或者是一个很好的冷静方法。
此经验，我永生难忘。
Friday, September 2, 2011
Questionable questions being questioning
Why do we have to make everything perfect?
I mean,try to make things perfect?
does choice define identity?
if it were, does it mean that being a teen mum makes you a MILF?
I never chose where I belong, my choices brought me where I am.
Because I never get to choose. We never get to choose.
I mean, come on, let's face it.If you're dumb,ugly,low self-esteem,freak-acting and shit...if you wanna be my friend,you can go fuck urself.
Lady gaga sings about identity, everyone born on the right track and it's ok to be who we are.
But the thing is,it's not ok when others hate you for who u r.
What if one day I go all "naruto - running " like BOSS ?
We pretend we don't pretend.
How would you introduce urself when making frens?
No one tells the truth.
If u wan me to be honest next time I'd be like: "Hi,my name is Wong Loong Hean, you can call me Hand but don't expect me to give u a handjob.And I don't think ppl give a shit about me,are we done talking? cuz I'm about to fuck off."
People like to show off,you browse facebook looking at others' happy life, well, it's not always what it seems.
Maybe the one you've been jealous of has a tears souked pillow that can grow mushroom.
I'm a bit getting use to the swearing thing...I don't knw why...but it felt good everytime i say it and I fucking don't care what u think...if u wanna say something,well, SHUT THE Front door.
I'm a twat sometime.
P.S If you see me getting smaller, don't be grieving,I've got the right to disappear.
I mean,try to make things perfect?
does choice define identity?
if it were, does it mean that being a teen mum makes you a MILF?
I never chose where I belong, my choices brought me where I am.
Because I never get to choose. We never get to choose.
I mean, come on, let's face it.If you're dumb,ugly,low self-esteem,freak-acting and shit...if you wanna be my friend,you can go fuck urself.
Lady gaga sings about identity, everyone born on the right track and it's ok to be who we are.
But the thing is,it's not ok when others hate you for who u r.
What if one day I go all "naruto - running " like BOSS ?
We pretend we don't pretend.
How would you introduce urself when making frens?
No one tells the truth.
If u wan me to be honest next time I'd be like: "Hi,my name is Wong Loong Hean, you can call me Hand but don't expect me to give u a handjob.And I don't think ppl give a shit about me,are we done talking? cuz I'm about to fuck off."
People like to show off,you browse facebook looking at others' happy life, well, it's not always what it seems.
Maybe the one you've been jealous of has a tears souked pillow that can grow mushroom.
I'm a bit getting use to the swearing thing...I don't knw why...but it felt good everytime i say it and I fucking don't care what u think...if u wanna say something,well, SHUT THE Front door.
I'm a twat sometime.
P.S If you see me getting smaller, don't be grieving,I've got the right to disappear.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
我觉得凡事都会回到原点
就像地球是圆的
天啊
最近很喜欢讲这句
就很顺口阿
这段日子好多人讲我变了
天啊
又怎样？？
我又为什么要不变？？
就算变了又有多碍事？？
就所以感情要变质吗？？
就像xx家的猪参种了，它还是猪
就像肥婆莉说的，“干嘛那么在乎？”
我就这样想
而且一定有人可以接受这样的我地
=）
天啊
老卢去展开她的新生活了
知道她还是会回来
只是
不习惯！！
不习惯没有看到她
她的笑声+笑脸
希望不会有这个机会为她掉眼泪
那就没人半夜还陪我去喝茶了~
对不对？？肥婆~
到最后，我还是回到宁静又精彩的生活~
原点有几个？？
最好有很多个
那就没差了~
^^
想念的感觉还是挥不去><
或许明天
就不会有这种怪怪的感觉了
=）
咳
落空~
就是这个样子~
=D
[只要我们相信，我们就不曾改变]
晴。
就像地球是圆的
天啊
最近很喜欢讲这句
就很顺口阿
这段日子好多人讲我变了
天啊
又怎样？？
我又为什么要不变？？
就算变了又有多碍事？？
就所以感情要变质吗？？
就像xx家的猪参种了，它还是猪
就像肥婆莉说的，“干嘛那么在乎？”
我就这样想
而且一定有人可以接受这样的我地
=）
天啊
老卢去展开她的新生活了
知道她还是会回来
只是
不习惯！！
不习惯没有看到她
她的笑声+笑脸
希望不会有这个机会为她掉眼泪
那就没人半夜还陪我去喝茶了~
对不对？？肥婆~
到最后，我还是回到宁静又精彩的生活~
原点有几个？？
最好有很多个
那就没差了~
^^
想念的感觉还是挥不去><
或许明天
就不会有这种怪怪的感觉了
=）
咳
落空~
=D
[只要我们相信，我们就不曾改变]
晴。
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Oh~ For what's worth loving
I
a barely 18 years old
who lives in such mad time
so do you
Forced to love doing what I hate
eventually
I don't even what's real anymore
I've never intended to hurt anyone
but I did
to the ones who love and love ones
If I were sane
I'd be an ass
so the litttle bit insanity does help
I hate doing what I love and love doing what I hate
but does it really matter?
Will what we do now define us?
for what's worth loving
why do you worthed?
Maybe you are not to answer.
I never wanted one
I need questions
to keep myself alive
Am I a burden?
I don't know
but I am burdened
With burdens.
I found questions which are to be asked.
but there's one I rather not do.
P.S Do I worth loving?
a barely 18 years old
who lives in such mad time
so do you
Forced to love doing what I hate
eventually
I don't even what's real anymore
I've never intended to hurt anyone
but I did
to the ones who love and love ones
If I were sane
I'd be an ass
so the litttle bit insanity does help
I hate doing what I love and love doing what I hate
but does it really matter?
Will what we do now define us?
for what's worth loving
why do you worthed?
Maybe you are not to answer.
I never wanted one
I need questions
to keep myself alive
Am I a burden?
I don't know
but I am burdened
With burdens.
I found questions which are to be asked.
but there's one I rather not do.
P.S Do I worth loving?
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
从前从前。。
这几个月里经历了蛮多不想经历的，
突然觉得自己有比以前成熟一点点了，
也发现要学习的东西还很多，很多。
世界不可能顺着我的想法运行，
我不可能把全世界的人都打死，虽然有时会很想。
很多时候还是必须虚伪对人。
人就应该能屈能伸，不对吗？
今天你见到的是我的狼狈，
但接下来会是我的成功，
虽然我不知道成功的定义是什么。。
18岁了，原来我会的，学到的，是那么地少
还真有点可悲
我不喜欢讲大道理讲古，
因为怕抢了老aunty 老uncle的工作，
但今天就有那么一点点的感触。
各位，统考加油
突然觉得自己有比以前成熟一点点了，
也发现要学习的东西还很多，很多。
世界不可能顺着我的想法运行，
我不可能把全世界的人都打死，虽然有时会很想。
很多时候还是必须虚伪对人。
人就应该能屈能伸，不对吗？
今天你见到的是我的狼狈，
但接下来会是我的成功，
虽然我不知道成功的定义是什么。。
18岁了，原来我会的，学到的，是那么地少
还真有点可悲
我不喜欢讲大道理讲古，
因为怕抢了老aunty 老uncle的工作，
但今天就有那么一点点的感触。
各位，统考加油
Sunday, June 12, 2011
TMD， 几时才放假？
还有几个小时就开学了， 我的假却没放到。
放假第2，3天，走去帮哥哥顶班promote了两天planta，接下来的星期1 - 5 都回校排戏剧比赛的戏。
很不容易星期6，想去跳舞放松怎知通通放飞机，出门到一半有人要看戏...YES, 就看戏，看了Diary of a whimpy kid 2。不错的一部小品。礼拜在家褒剧，然后上小提琴课-----正常。又到星期1，2，3，排戏！道具坏了 我 自己 一个人 到 Sunway Pyramid 买。拜4，以为旁晚才到新纪元报到。怎知道睡到10点多一条粉肠打来讲要开始彩排了。 妈的，老爸又去了KL，花了整50多块坐的士去，还是赶不及技术彩排，直接总彩排。睡了3天地板，没进总决赛，大家就从新纪元搭的士到 Belakong 的 Jusco 看Xmen first class，这部戏很不错，交待了为什么 Xavier和Magneto 是 frienemy, 现在在跟家里的床缠绵。
所以，我没有放到假！！！
话说回来，那些戏剧的人爱戏剧爱到我想反胃。一个两个在green room时候哭来哭去，害到我都不好意思，在那边扮忧郁......
P.S 最后一年中学的年中假期，消耗到很有活着的感觉。至少不是以前那个一直逛街的我。
放假第2，3天，走去帮哥哥顶班promote了两天planta，接下来的星期1 - 5 都回校排戏剧比赛的戏。
很不容易星期6，想去跳舞放松怎知通通放飞机，出门到一半有人要看戏...YES, 就看戏，看了Diary of a whimpy kid 2。不错的一部小品。礼拜在家褒剧，然后上小提琴课-----正常。又到星期1，2，3，排戏！道具坏了 我 自己 一个人 到 Sunway Pyramid 买。拜4，以为旁晚才到新纪元报到。怎知道睡到10点多一条粉肠打来讲要开始彩排了。 妈的，老爸又去了KL，花了整50多块坐的士去，还是赶不及技术彩排，直接总彩排。睡了3天地板，没进总决赛，大家就从新纪元搭的士到 Belakong 的 Jusco 看Xmen first class，这部戏很不错，交待了为什么 Xavier和Magneto 是 frienemy, 现在在跟家里的床缠绵。
所以，我没有放到假！！！
话说回来，那些戏剧的人爱戏剧爱到我想反胃。一个两个在green room时候哭来哭去，害到我都不好意思，在那边扮忧郁......
P.S 最后一年中学的年中假期，消耗到很有活着的感觉。至少不是以前那个一直逛街的我。
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
蚂蚁跳楼会死吗
因为JPA奖学金问题，我没书读，当了很久的无业游民，偶尔做些散工，生活无聊。。
我们的政府，真的很有效率，如果我会生鸡蛋，我敢保证我在这等待的当儿已经生超过一百粒鸡蛋
有时真的感觉我好像死了，没有一点活力，这周末将参加新加玻大学入选考试，但跟本就不想准备，也没准备。。
所以爱上了跆拳道，因为只有那种被人打被人踢的痛能让我感到我还活着
看了龙显的post里的恋爱道理，我真的很同意，同时也怀疑他是不是因为没人爱才会有葡萄酸的感觉。。
谈恋爱真的是多余的。。爱一个人一天都有问题了，怎么可能一生一世?
曾经期待恋爱，但现在还是玩玩恋爱会比较实际吧！不要当白痴相信二十年后你的男人或女人还依然对你热情不退，对你好那只不过是责任或罪恶感罢了
比起认真的感情，我会宁愿去租男友
Ps：想爱就爱，毕竟不是每次都有那想爱人的冲动
我们的政府，真的很有效率，如果我会生鸡蛋，我敢保证我在这等待的当儿已经生超过一百粒鸡蛋
有时真的感觉我好像死了，没有一点活力，这周末将参加新加玻大学入选考试，但跟本就不想准备，也没准备。。
所以爱上了跆拳道，因为只有那种被人打被人踢的痛能让我感到我还活着
看了龙显的post里的恋爱道理，我真的很同意，同时也怀疑他是不是因为没人爱才会有葡萄酸的感觉。。
谈恋爱真的是多余的。。爱一个人一天都有问题了，怎么可能一生一世?
曾经期待恋爱，但现在还是玩玩恋爱会比较实际吧！不要当白痴相信二十年后你的男人或女人还依然对你热情不退，对你好那只不过是责任或罪恶感罢了
比起认真的感情，我会宁愿去租男友
Ps：想爱就爱，毕竟不是每次都有那想爱人的冲动
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Getting old is a bitch
June, "转眼间" 就六月了，没有酱夸张啦...你以为时光旅行meh? 总之，还有5个多月就毕业了。
毕业后，有些会保持联络，有些就来世不见。
大家还有什么 teenage dream 就快点发，要不然到时只剩 teenage scream. 没机会了。
毕业后，我们的梦想会一个个 come crushing down, 现实就 slap 你 on your face.
未来太多可能性，每个决定都会影响你生命故事的发展，每个事件都影响下一个事件，全部是连接的。
现在有拍拖的朋友，你认为你跟你现在的爱人"永远在一起"和"一生一世"(那些小妹妹很喜欢在facebook酱放)的机会有多少? Seriously. Because "forever" is a really LONG time. 不是要大家分手, 只是建议大家想下各种可能性, hope you guys enjoy the time you have and maybe get a birthday sex.
我期待, 我也害怕
朋友, 你以后想要做什么工作? 你想要继续读大学吗? 你想读些什么? 统考你有把握吗?
答案: 我不知道
因为未来太多可能性, 我可能在统考期间肚子痛, 当了几科......
P.S Will you ever be there for me when I need you? friend.
毕业后，有些会保持联络，有些就来世不见。
大家还有什么 teenage dream 就快点发，要不然到时只剩 teenage scream. 没机会了。
毕业后，我们的梦想会一个个 come crushing down, 现实就 slap 你 on your face.
未来太多可能性，每个决定都会影响你生命故事的发展，每个事件都影响下一个事件，全部是连接的。
现在有拍拖的朋友，你认为你跟你现在的爱人"永远在一起"和"一生一世"(那些小妹妹很喜欢在facebook酱放)的机会有多少? Seriously. Because "forever" is a really LONG time. 不是要大家分手, 只是建议大家想下各种可能性, hope you guys enjoy the time you have and maybe get a birthday sex.
我期待, 我也害怕
朋友, 你以后想要做什么工作? 你想要继续读大学吗? 你想读些什么? 统考你有把握吗?
答案: 我不知道
因为未来太多可能性, 我可能在统考期间肚子痛, 当了几科......
P.S Will you ever be there for me when I need you? friend.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
想讲一讲
一整天的重点在哪里？？
今天看了一整天的戏
花花世界什么什么的
阿佘的新戏
她演智障
就像女版的“阿旺”+眼泪多
没什么
反倒是
林峰
可爱
剧情，普通
笑点，有拉
林要睡觉
佘：你要吃什么？？？（重复多次类似）
林不耐烦
林：吃屎拉~
佘：har~屎不可以吃的噢~
林翻白眼
我觉得这个好笑:)
就这样过了一天
一天24小时
睡觉用了10小时
还有14小时
休息进食3小时
还有十一小时
hell
用在看戏
看戏这个动作
实在是不知不觉
加上没有“大人”在管
自治能力有待加强
实在是活得很没重点
今天有人提醒我星期几了
还真是不知不觉
要毕业了~
{人生会有很多交叉点
但是你必须去面对}
今早我妈&我讲
我小时候的第一个志愿是
收银员
因为可以天天数很多钱，很爽
靠！
真是天真，无邪
现在可不觉得天天数着不是自己的钱很爽
{界限到了、底线到了~就是这样了
再改变，也不见得会有多好}
还有什么要哈拉的呢？？
不想上FB，甚至还想把它删了
不想再看戏，原来看多也会觉得有点~不充实
最最最最不想是跳舞，哈
多久不再看跳舞的影片，听跳舞的歌，想跳舞的动作，参与跳舞的活动
不懂几久了
理由：没有
就是懒了~
一整天的重点在哪里？？
今天看了一整天的戏
花花世界什么什么的
阿佘的新戏
她演智障
就像女版的“阿旺”+眼泪多
没什么
反倒是
林峰
可爱
剧情，普通
笑点，有拉
林要睡觉
佘：你要吃什么？？？（重复多次类似）
林不耐烦
林：吃屎拉~
佘：har~屎不可以吃的噢~
林翻白眼
我觉得这个好笑:)
就这样过了一天
一天24小时
睡觉用了10小时
还有14小时
休息进食3小时
还有十一小时
hell
用在看戏
看戏这个动作
实在是不知不觉
加上没有“大人”在管
自治能力有待加强
实在是活得很没重点
今天有人提醒我星期几了
还真是不知不觉
要毕业了~
{人生会有很多交叉点
但是你必须去面对}
今早我妈&我讲
我小时候的第一个志愿是
收银员
因为可以天天数很多钱，很爽
靠！
真是天真，无邪
现在可不觉得天天数着不是自己的钱很爽
{界限到了、底线到了~就是这样了
再改变，也不见得会有多好}
还有什么要哈拉的呢？？
不想上FB，甚至还想把它删了
不想再看戏，原来看多也会觉得有点~不充实
最最最最不想是跳舞，哈
多久不再看跳舞的影片，听跳舞的歌，想跳舞的动作，参与跳舞的活动
不懂几久了
理由：没有
就是懒了~
Thursday, May 26, 2011
When did we become so twisted?
We have all done bad things and these things are something that will seal with our coffin, even if it's just Taking Money out from your parents' wallets without them knowing.
Bully.Bullies. To talk about bullying at school, ya right, those girls are some serious bithches. Why? Did they actually know what were they doing? I think I do.
I think I do.
That day Soup and I were bullying a fat kid who lives with us, I was commanding him to mop the floor, which he had no will to do at all, but he had no choice. Long story short and stupid enough, he was making all these noices and excuses and giving attitutes, but with our "guidance", he'd done it.
We all love being in the position of power and like to take control, aren't we?
The drama contest I'm partcipating, I don't see it as a teamwork, mostly I just think that it's just me turn in my piece of artwork. The actors are tools for me. I was not the original scriptwriter, and thank god the original one has no skill in writing a script, seriously a dumbass, so I waved my little magic wand and pulled myself out from the acting part.
I didn't manipulate uphere to be a Nobody.
P.S I just want people to look bad on me.
Bully.Bullies. To talk about bullying at school, ya right, those girls are some serious bithches. Why? Did they actually know what were they doing? I think I do.
I think I do.
That day Soup and I were bullying a fat kid who lives with us, I was commanding him to mop the floor, which he had no will to do at all, but he had no choice. Long story short and stupid enough, he was making all these noices and excuses and giving attitutes, but with our "guidance", he'd done it.
We all love being in the position of power and like to take control, aren't we?
The drama contest I'm partcipating, I don't see it as a teamwork, mostly I just think that it's just me turn in my piece of artwork. The actors are tools for me. I was not the original scriptwriter, and thank god the original one has no skill in writing a script, seriously a dumbass, so I waved my little magic wand and pulled myself out from the acting part.
I didn't manipulate uphere to be a Nobody.
P.S I just want people to look bad on me.
Friday, May 6, 2011
NO PAIN NO GAIN
holiday....final exam just over...so BORING
noone is updating this blog for n weeks...here I come, i know u miss me
tkd tournament, many ppl said tat is the only time i look like human or i m alive
other time i look like i m going to die anytime..or lacking of sleep for n years
yeah, i m aggressive, i wanna kill my opponent when it comes to sparring during tournament
well, dun talk nonsense, who wans to lose
my passion in tkd is fading day by day, skip training whenever i wan to...
this time i got SILVER...stupid mannnn....
noone is updating this blog for n weeks...here I come, i know u miss me
tkd tournament, many ppl said tat is the only time i look like human or i m alive
other time i look like i m going to die anytime..or lacking of sleep for n years
yeah, i m aggressive, i wanna kill my opponent when it comes to sparring during tournament
well, dun talk nonsense, who wans to lose
my passion in tkd is fading day by day, skip training whenever i wan to...
this time i got SILVER...stupid mannnn....
Monday, May 2, 2011
既然
既然都sign in了
写一写吧~
今天做了一整天的统考题的整理
我以为我两个小时就够用了
结果
太看得起自己了
我的下午
用完了
靠！
至少对着电脑已经可以忍住不去看戏了。不错。
(vampire diaries威力虽然强，至少我也忍住了。哈哈哈)
这两天，实在吃得太多了
应该要好好地惩罚一下自己了~
还有要戒辣
刚刚看了龙的blog
他写的是去年的寝室
让我勾起202的回忆
想念~
想念靖欣~
她过得很好
我知道
现在现在
我想出去买东西
妈咪睡了
要不要叫她起来
可是她又刚睡
如果我自己把小白驾出去
我猜
她会发癫
以后不给我驾就完了
我也不想英年早逝
我可是未来栋梁
唱歌好听
样貌独特
怎么形容？
就是我喜欢的型
就是很赞就对了^^
她们会来马开演唱会吗？
希望有这么一天=）
雨大雷大
出去又不是
关电脑又不想
@.@
没得再选了~
写一写吧~
今天做了一整天的统考题的整理
我以为我两个小时就够用了
结果
太看得起自己了
我的下午
用完了
靠！
至少对着电脑已经可以忍住不去看戏了。不错。
(vampire diaries威力虽然强，至少我也忍住了。哈哈哈)
这两天，实在吃得太多了
应该要好好地惩罚一下自己了~
还有要戒辣
刚刚看了龙的blog
他写的是去年的寝室
让我勾起202的回忆
想念~
想念靖欣~
她过得很好
我知道
现在现在
我想出去买东西
妈咪睡了
要不要叫她起来
可是她又刚睡
如果我自己把小白驾出去
我猜
她会发癫
以后不给我驾就完了
我也不想英年早逝
我可是未来栋梁
之一
认识2NE1吗??
我超超超喜欢她们的
她们的表演力超强的
跳舞好看唱歌好听
样貌独特
怎么形容？
就是我喜欢的型
就是很赞就对了^^
她们会来马开演唱会吗？
希望有这么一天=）
雨大雷大
出去又不是
关电脑又不想
@.@
没得再选了~
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
鱼我所欲也
孟子曰：“欲与熊掌不可兼得”。
活在这个世界上有谁不想两全其美。
我也想是个两全其美的人，但我一出生就活在这个世界上我没得选择。
我没提过，但并不代表我没伤心过，没体验过那种感觉。
我也是人类，我也有体验过那种感觉，也明白那总感受。
一些东西明明是你的，但是到最后关头却得不到，那种心情是非一般人类可以体验得到的。
但总有会像牛郎织女见面的一天，但在之前就要经得起考验，而不要轻易放弃。
还记得一起欢乐的日子吗？如果现在放弃了，这些日子将永远永远的不会再“历史重演”。
一个经营了那么久的“商店”，难道就轻易的放弃。
一个人活下来是为了什么，是为了失落、伤心、烦恼、忧愁。。。。。。
全都不是，为的是开心、欢乐、喜悦、成就。。。。。。
p/s： 你我的相遇是一种缘分
转身之后
你，打电话给我，因为你无聊，因为你有事要我帮忙
我，打给你，因为我很久没见到你，想念你，虽然我告诉你因为我无聊
你约我出去，我答应，但往往在答应后接到你的电话，说他们改时间，说他们换地点，说这样不方便那样不方便。。
少数服从多数，而我。。属于少数。。或者就因为迁就不了而跟你说改天见
你永远都体会不到这种从兴奋到失望，再到生气，再到麻木的感觉。。。搬家是这样，家人是这样，朋友是这样，你们也是这样
迁就久了，会觉得自己委屈，虽然事实上不是真的委屈。。还以为多等一年这种互动方式会被迫自动地划上逗号，或许句号。。但看来我太高估自己的EQ了
我。。终于。。想。。放弃了
因为我霸道，所以向来都是别人听我的。。我争不过你的，我不会让你很快乐的拥有它
付出，这词真的有点陌生
不愿付出，就不能快乐，就无法谈恋爱，无法有个知心朋友
不愿付出，就等于什么都是loser
但是，因为霸道，我还是不想付出，所以，我输了。。。
也没什么影响吧。。迟早也会退出。。也不过是早了一年而已
再见
刚在听的歌 biis（转身之后）
Ps : I m just crapping
我，打给你，因为我很久没见到你，想念你，虽然我告诉你因为我无聊
你约我出去，我答应，但往往在答应后接到你的电话，说他们改时间，说他们换地点，说这样不方便那样不方便。。
少数服从多数，而我。。属于少数。。或者就因为迁就不了而跟你说改天见
你永远都体会不到这种从兴奋到失望，再到生气，再到麻木的感觉。。。搬家是这样，家人是这样，朋友是这样，你们也是这样
迁就久了，会觉得自己委屈，虽然事实上不是真的委屈。。还以为多等一年这种互动方式会被迫自动地划上逗号，或许句号。。但看来我太高估自己的EQ了
我。。终于。。想。。放弃了
因为我霸道，所以向来都是别人听我的。。我争不过你的，我不会让你很快乐的拥有它
付出，这词真的有点陌生
不愿付出，就不能快乐，就无法谈恋爱，无法有个知心朋友
不愿付出，就等于什么都是loser
但是，因为霸道，我还是不想付出，所以，我输了。。。
也没什么影响吧。。迟早也会退出。。也不过是早了一年而已
再见
刚在听的歌 biis（转身之后）
Ps : I m just crapping
Thursday, March 17, 2011
I just hate racism
16个小时之前家里弄电，
要到5点多才会back on. 电话没充到电，所以等于跟世界失去联系...
吃了早餐就自己一个人到IOI mall 打发时间
本来先要看电影，可是很多人，买一张票很像很pathetic...
所以没看到。
过后到Popular看书，看到一本龙应台写的，很多感触。
生活在亚洲的我们，青少年，我们的课业，组织能力，应变能力比欧美国家的同代好。
可是“玩”起来，让自己真正去体验我们生活不是为了别人和什么社会，而是自己。我们比不上。
谁不懂万里之外有饿的要吃土的小孩？可是我不会因为我知道了这个事实而把我碗里不想吃的饭扒掉。
谁不懂地球越来越热，冰山就要融化，威尼斯就会bye bye? 天气酱热，不开冷气的, 我就只能默默的从精神上支持你。
我懂中国的Nike厂对待女工不道德，可是我不会不买Nike的东西。
话说回来，从小学到现在，时常听到有人叫我们以后“成为国家栋梁，回馈华社。发扬中国文化 blah blah blah"。我只想说 “ Dude, it's 21 世纪了。”
我没有听过“小孩，你长大以后要过你想要过的生活，最重要的是自己开心，无憾就好。”
人家小孩子连毛都没有生齐就叫人家背负着社会存亡的责任，TMD你们有没有更变态的？
我不相信country和race把人分化，我只相信Generation, 因为全世界同年龄的人都在想一样的东西。打这篇post的时候我脑里闪过“SEX”，你看到此字，你开始想了......
我不喜欢中国人的民族优越感，我不喜欢白人那种自以为是的认知，我不喜欢黑人的自卑感。
我以后可能是个作家。 That doesn't stand a snow ball chance.
P.S I'm not a bad person either, I give penny to charity.
要到5点多才会back on. 电话没充到电，所以等于跟世界失去联系...
吃了早餐就自己一个人到IOI mall 打发时间
本来先要看电影，可是很多人，买一张票很像很pathetic...
所以没看到。
过后到Popular看书，看到一本龙应台写的，很多感触。
生活在亚洲的我们，青少年，我们的课业，组织能力，应变能力比欧美国家的同代好。
可是“玩”起来，让自己真正去体验我们生活不是为了别人和什么社会，而是自己。我们比不上。
谁不懂万里之外有饿的要吃土的小孩？可是我不会因为我知道了这个事实而把我碗里不想吃的饭扒掉。
谁不懂地球越来越热，冰山就要融化，威尼斯就会bye bye? 天气酱热，不开冷气的, 我就只能默默的从精神上支持你。
我懂中国的Nike厂对待女工不道德，可是我不会不买Nike的东西。
话说回来，从小学到现在，时常听到有人叫我们以后“成为国家栋梁，回馈华社。发扬中国文化 blah blah blah"。我只想说 “ Dude, it's 21 世纪了。”
我没有听过“小孩，你长大以后要过你想要过的生活，最重要的是自己开心，无憾就好。”
人家小孩子连毛都没有生齐就叫人家背负着社会存亡的责任，TMD你们有没有更变态的？
我不相信country和race把人分化，我只相信Generation, 因为全世界同年龄的人都在想一样的东西。打这篇post的时候我脑里闪过“SEX”，你看到此字，你开始想了......
我不喜欢中国人的民族优越感，我不喜欢白人那种自以为是的认知，我不喜欢黑人的自卑感。
我以后可能是个作家。 That doesn't stand a snow ball chance.
P.S I'm not a bad person either, I give penny to charity.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
那种感觉
从昨天的下半天
从我到家没锁匙进门
从我发脾气在某个人身上
从我向家人邻居求助不果
我那时的感觉真的很不好
那种感觉给我的感觉
很想死
我觉得我像是一个没人要的小孩
平时的我会为了没锁匙进门发这种脾气吗
不会吧
我也不懂我受了什么气
然后又发了一大堆这种气
把笨重的行李
放在门口
看电影去吧
不然都不懂要等几久
选了一套不懂什么戏
看了才知道什么叫错误的选择
绝望
回家吧
走着回家的路
死党出现
有那一秒
觉得我在做梦
又再看一场
这场好多了
谢你噢
你总是带给我欢乐
不要暗爽=）
回家
电话没电
妈妈还没回来
我从来都不正眼去看楼下的公共电话一眼
我没得选了
打吧
也不懂等了多久
坐在麻麻档喝水
可是却像在谷底被水淹着
回到来
袋子不见了
以为有人帮我那进屋里了
开灯
没有
一堆的衣服谁要拿？？
两种可能
第一种：真的有人要拿
第二种：扫地的阿姨扫掉了
bullshit! really bullshit
我的校衣
体育衣
出街衣
休闲衣
内衣裤
10套++吧
没了
好像被打枪了
我的有形物质没了
我的无形资产也在消失
抓不住
很累
冲了凉
还是觉得
很累
昏睡去
做梦
我记得 我有找回袋子
起来
什么都没有
就是没有了
或许我还在做梦吧
希望醒来
所有所有都要回来
从我到家没锁匙进门
从我发脾气在某个人身上
从我向家人邻居求助不果
我那时的感觉真的很不好
那种感觉给我的感觉
很想死
我觉得我像是一个没人要的小孩
平时的我会为了没锁匙进门发这种脾气吗
不会吧
我也不懂我受了什么气
然后又发了一大堆这种气
把笨重的行李
放在门口
看电影去吧
不然都不懂要等几久
选了一套不懂什么戏
看了才知道什么叫错误的选择
绝望
回家吧
走着回家的路
死党出现
有那一秒
觉得我在做梦
又再看一场
这场好多了
谢你噢
你总是带给我欢乐
不要暗爽=）
回家
电话没电
妈妈还没回来
我从来都不正眼去看楼下的公共电话一眼
我没得选了
打吧
也不懂等了多久
坐在麻麻档喝水
可是却像在谷底被水淹着
回到来
袋子不见了
以为有人帮我那进屋里了
开灯
没有
一堆的衣服谁要拿？？
两种可能
第一种：真的有人要拿
第二种：扫地的阿姨扫掉了
bullshit! really bullshit
我的校衣
体育衣
出街衣
休闲衣
内衣裤
10套++吧
没了
好像被打枪了
我的有形物质没了
我的无形资产也在消失
抓不住
很累
冲了凉
还是觉得
很累
昏睡去
做梦
我记得 我有找回袋子
起来
什么都没有
就是没有了
或许我还在做梦吧
希望醒来
所有所有都要回来
4营 = 4影？？？
在这个假期里，高三学习营就占了４天。还好在４部影片的陪同下度过了这４天。
今天为了要等健龙"下班"所以就到Old JJ看电影。原本思颖预算5点前可以看完，因为
5点半要载她弟弟。看完后她就载龙显去车站，然后载我会健龙家。她看到健龙脚车
就讲要骑，但没骑到因为脚车锁上了。就在她走后我找到了锁匙，就因为这样害我
被狗追！！晚上健龙姐姐载我们（我、健龙、熙农）去吃晚餐。
今天吃一个比火锅还贵的火锅（Boston）——RM40++。都是思颖害的，上个礼拜叫
我去陪首相夫人吃饭，然后拿到了一张所谓50%的discount voucher。结果才扣RM20
第３部戏：（我、子力、桂耀、静莉、健龙）－MBO
今天是我第一次10点过后跟朋友到戏院看戏，第一次跟全场只有自己人看戏，第一
次在戏院乱乱喊、乱乱跳，第一次吃到在戏院最难吃的popcorn，第一次看戏看到酱
冷，第一次看到躺着来看。。。。。
第４部戏：（我 ＆ 金发）－Sunway
今天放学去吃McDonalds，原本打算去Sunway逛逛，结果跑去看戏。这部戏超爽的，
刺激到金发抓这我的手不放。弄到我的手痛到，不会讲。金发去打第三次耳洞不过
他耳朵只有一个洞。在要回的时候，看到思颖发来的信息说要来Sunway，害我跟金
发在那边等她。
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
分享，也是一种幸福
大学生活：简直铺张浪费
那么多小时的中段休息时间，能做什么？就和朋友花钱去玩，不玩不掺，就没有朋友，玩了，就觉得对不起父母对不起自己，读书不读好来，钱却花了不少
下定决心，不玩了！！应该说把钱玩完了吧。。不想再当月光族
开始爱上华文歌，因为都很emo,很有感触
有空去听：喜欢一个人好累
昨天你送我一个笑脸
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气勇敢面对
暗恋喜欢一个人好美
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气勇敢面对
暗恋喜欢一个人好美
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I'm not OK
" Are you OK? ", I replied " No, I'm not, I'm Hand Hean".
I'm sick, physically and psychologically.
When is high school end already? I hate exam.
Just to come up and bull a little shit because someone does that a lot. Just a little.
P.S You know you love me, XOXO.
I'm sick, physically and psychologically.
When is high school end already? I hate exam.
Just to come up and bull a little shit because someone does that a lot. Just a little.
P.S You know you love me, XOXO.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
烧掉你，我会比较好过
我把我的成绩给burn了
本来以为会很痛快
哪知道
那火慢到 一吹就 没了
不过瘾咯>.
通常这种时候
我会怨
怨运气不好怨这个那个的
其实我知道
是我自己的能力有问题
要面对这现实
很伤心的哩=（
伤心又没有用的那种...
但是就是
烧掉你，我会比较好过
换话题
有一位朋友
把她比喻成一种饮料
她的味道很棒，我喜欢这口味
她&另一种饮料是好朋友
这两种饮料+在一起 蛮好喝的，所以喜欢
后来这饮料 & 另另一种饮料 熟悉了
这另另一种饮料呢 本身不错 我欣赏 但是太呛 不适合我
但我依然 欣赏
最后 她们mix了
我开始反感
感觉变了
奇怪的是
她们分开我依然喜欢 合在一起却有一种说不出的距离感
就算我反感
她们还是在我面前走过 从我旁边走过 从我后面走过
所以
so what ?? 只要自己是快乐的 何必管别人喜不喜欢呢
那其实不关我的事
我自己
已经有我很喜欢的一班朋友
虽然我们不常粘在一起 也不怎么有默契
可是就是感觉都很好啊
所以 我很幸福
大家虽然爱踩我 但是还是那么的照顾我
口是心非的~
&你们在一起 我觉得很舒服
这几天假期就要过了
过了就一大堆的测验来
不这样那算高三
但是还是 哟~！！！
越大越不爱读书
要怎样上大学？？？！！
还有三个小时就要起来
起来又是一张空白的纸等我画
= = ，=] ，=（，= l
本来以为会很痛快
哪知道
那火慢到 一吹就 没了
不过瘾咯>.
通常这种时候
我会怨
怨运气不好怨这个那个的
其实我知道
是我自己的能力有问题
要面对这现实
很伤心的哩=（
伤心又没有用的那种...
但是就是
烧掉你，我会比较好过
换话题
有一位朋友
把她比喻成一种饮料
她的味道很棒，我喜欢这口味
她&另一种饮料是好朋友
这两种饮料+在一起 蛮好喝的，所以喜欢
后来这饮料 & 另另一种饮料 熟悉了
这另另一种饮料呢 本身不错 我欣赏 但是太呛 不适合我
但我依然 欣赏
最后 她们mix了
我开始反感
感觉变了
奇怪的是
她们分开我依然喜欢 合在一起却有一种说不出的距离感
就算我反感
她们还是在我面前走过 从我旁边走过 从我后面走过
所以
so what ?? 只要自己是快乐的 何必管别人喜不喜欢呢
那其实不关我的事
我自己
已经有我很喜欢的一班朋友
虽然我们不常粘在一起 也不怎么有默契
可是就是感觉都很好啊
所以 我很幸福
大家虽然爱踩我 但是还是那么的照顾我
口是心非的~
&你们在一起 我觉得很舒服
这几天假期就要过了
过了就一大堆的测验来
不这样那算高三
但是还是 哟~！！！
越大越不爱读书
要怎样上大学？？？！！
还有三个小时就要起来
起来又是一张空白的纸等我画
= = ，=] ，=（，= l
Friday, February 11, 2011
Happy Valentine's Day
I love this day just to joke, because I love filthy jokes.
Valentine's day is like April fool in February to me...wait, it doesn't make sense, it's like a April in February??? I don't even know what I'm saying,
The holiday in this year will be a little bit different from last year, last year was a one-night-stand with my African neighbour, it meant nothing because I couldn't see anything. OFCOURSE I'M JOKING..... I think this year hopefully is gonna be Epic, it's CNY and you know... gotta work on my Math...if you know what I mean.
This CNY is only Boom Boom but no Pow, so boring, and our school did a very wrong measurement, I rather not do a straight week holidays, and last year we were still at school break on 5th CNY. Those in school board maybe the dumbest smart people I've ever known.
Sometimes I tried not to be a smart-ass, although I still am, how could you ask someone like me to do that? I'm too smart to play dumb, if I do I'll be like a retarded Obama singing Kesha songs and that'll be weird if I tik tok your face.
Sometimes I said something I don't even sure what it means, it's like they just come out from nowhere.
Did everyone know we're living in a mad time and the economy in Malaysia is at stake? if you read the news what you see is what you get, so I never read them. The government is so dumb that they couldn't protect their nationals from the oil crisis and they even tax us up. We are born free, then tax to death.
I know you won't be reading this, because most of you have your eyelid tug up when you see an article like this long. But if do you'll notice the Vday title was just something to gets you reading.
P.S: To whom should've breakup with your supposedly Ex, please breakup.
And whom has found your "Someone special", please go for it.
Also Whom's doing "Lay-low" style, it's OK you can float up abit.
Whom's being with who that may disgust others, please lay-low.
Whom remains single, don't need to say, you're so smart.
Valentine's day is like April fool in February to me...wait, it doesn't make sense, it's like a April in February??? I don't even know what I'm saying,
The holiday in this year will be a little bit different from last year, last year was a one-night-stand with my African neighbour, it meant nothing because I couldn't see anything. OFCOURSE I'M JOKING..... I think this year hopefully is gonna be Epic, it's CNY and you know... gotta work on my Math...if you know what I mean.
This CNY is only Boom Boom but no Pow, so boring, and our school did a very wrong measurement, I rather not do a straight week holidays, and last year we were still at school break on 5th CNY. Those in school board maybe the dumbest smart people I've ever known.
Sometimes I tried not to be a smart-ass, although I still am, how could you ask someone like me to do that? I'm too smart to play dumb, if I do I'll be like a retarded Obama singing Kesha songs and that'll be weird if I tik tok your face.
Sometimes I said something I don't even sure what it means, it's like they just come out from nowhere.
Did everyone know we're living in a mad time and the economy in Malaysia is at stake? if you read the news what you see is what you get, so I never read them. The government is so dumb that they couldn't protect their nationals from the oil crisis and they even tax us up. We are born free, then tax to death.
I know you won't be reading this, because most of you have your eyelid tug up when you see an article like this long. But if do you'll notice the Vday title was just something to gets you reading.
P.S: To whom should've breakup with your supposedly Ex, please breakup.
And whom has found your "Someone special", please go for it.
Also Whom's doing "Lay-low" style, it's OK you can float up abit.
Whom's being with who that may disgust others, please lay-low.
Whom remains single, don't need to say, you're so smart.
说声再见吧~
经过我几次的登入..我总于成功了..
我想说...我亲爱的老鼠被打破了..
很可怜..断成两半..
有些东西要离开你..
怎样留也留不住..
你只有唯一的选择-放手..
勉强也没有用..没有幸福的...
只有在拥有它的时候珍惜它..
亲爱的老鼠..在此我为你默哀..(超伤心的说)
再见了..
可怜到~原来我没有你的照片...
我想说...我亲爱的老鼠被打破了..
很可怜..断成两半..
有些东西要离开你..
怎样留也留不住..
你只有唯一的选择-放手..
勉强也没有用..没有幸福的...
只有在拥有它的时候珍惜它..
亲爱的老鼠..在此我为你默哀..(超伤心的说)
再见了..
可怜到~原来我没有你的照片...
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
One day
Some will win. Some will lose.
We have dream, and now we're chasing it, now it's just the beginning.
Some will succeed and live the dream they dreamed while others will move on with their shattered dream.
In the end it doesn't matter, what is fun is that we're enjoying the course and we'll always find a New dream.
No matter how suck it is today, it's gonna get better, maybe not tomorrow , not next year but years...or it can be next second. All we have to do is keep laughing on.
Why am I feel like the UEC is in next month and I haven't study anything yet?
Maybe it's the "Senior 3 disease", thinking the life after this year gives me goosebump...
I hope everybody's fine.
P.S Give Ms. Rani a thump up for her English accent attemp failure.
We have dream, and now we're chasing it, now it's just the beginning.
Some will succeed and live the dream they dreamed while others will move on with their shattered dream.
In the end it doesn't matter, what is fun is that we're enjoying the course and we'll always find a New dream.
No matter how suck it is today, it's gonna get better, maybe not tomorrow , not next year but years...or it can be next second. All we have to do is keep laughing on.
Why am I feel like the UEC is in next month and I haven't study anything yet?
Maybe it's the "Senior 3 disease", thinking the life after this year gives me goosebump...
I hope everybody's fine.
P.S Give Ms. Rani a thump up for her English accent attemp failure.
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