Oh~ For what's worth loving

I
a barely 18 years old
who lives in such mad time
so do you

Forced to love doing what I hate
eventually
I don't even what's real anymore

I've never intended to hurt anyone
but I did
to the ones who love and love ones

If I were sane
I'd be an ass
so the litttle bit insanity does help

I hate doing what I love and love doing what I hate
but does it really matter?
Will what we do now define us?

for what's worth loving
why do you worthed?
Maybe you are not to answer.

I never wanted one
I need questions
to keep myself alive

Am I a burden?
I don't know
but I am burdened

With burdens.

I found questions which are to be asked.
but there's one I rather not do.


P.S Do I worth loving?