Neither here nor there

Handle me with care,cuz I'm fragile.

Talking about future like we have a clue,like I have a clue.
Not sure how to make decision,juz know I have to make it sooner or later...
I'll take the later deal.

Looking photos back from 2009 to those recent ones,never thought that we changed so much already...I mean,I'm getting hotter and sexier than ever.

Getting used to the idea of joining into the unemploymentline,I'm so screwed.

Feel like something is missing,I mean,I'm not alone all the time.
But I'm always lonely.

Read lots of blogs and facebook's statuses,looks like everyone 's making it the end of everything.
No,it's not.It's a new beginning.

Beginning of your miserable life.

I'm a clean slate now,and I'm ready to be carved by mistakes and dirts.
OMG,it sounded so meaningful,frankly I have no idea of I'm trying to say.

Dolce far niente------learnt from "EAR,PRAY,LOVE",it means "the sweetness of doing nothing".
Better stick with that first.
Although even my mum asked me to get a job.

Where should I start?


P.S  If you gotta love somebody,love them all the same.

那些年

又回到最初的起点
记忆中你青涩的脸
我们终於来到了这一天
桌垫下的老照片 无数回忆连结
今天男孩要赴女孩最后的约

又回到最初的起点
呆呆地站在镜子前
笨拙系上红色领带的结
将头发梳成大人模样
穿上一身帅气西装
等会儿见你一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的时光
回到教室座位前后
故意讨你温柔的吗
黑板上排列组合 你舍得解开吗
谁与谁坐他又爱著她

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你 拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你 告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星
平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你




P.S 我发现,只要改一点点,就可当毕业歌了...
    2年来,最吸引我的华语歌...

Season finale

OK ok, it's the final episode of season 6 <<Your High School life>>. Airing on the date 5/11/2011.

Cheats,lies,tears,regrets,relief,disappointments,lights,determination,definition,love, hate,friendship,relationship,recognition,denial,acception and classification. All boil down this very day.

Then we will look back one day,amused by everything we ever had.

Life gets people,it always does.

I predict that on the graduation day, we'll be all sad and crying,making promises to see each other,and NEVER LOSE TOUCH.Knowing that they can't be kept long.

The least we can do is try. And I'll keep trying,forever.

But before that,we'll have to deal with UEC.

Everyone, GO FORTH!


Before we face anymore twists and turns,we get riddle from the past events to solve.

For the unknown lasting time of our unbreakable bond,I will it to be more challenging for our friendship. After all we have come to term with being comfortable with the uncomfortable.

The show is not over, it's just a cliffhanger.



P.S holding on to what I haven't got,and everything WE ever had.

So sad it's almost tragic

把我的悲伤,留给自己(不懂做么打不到句号)
你的也可以给我一点,让我帮你分担下,反正我都很衰了...我一个人死好过两个人死

大家不要担心,我只是最近有点sentimental......

很多人很喜欢看韩剧,我却慢慢讨厌它(电影不算)

为什么?让我来帮你分析一下:
男主角,女主角相识相恋,爱得死去活来,高潮迭起.
突然间杀出他们其中一个的前度男女朋友,出来搞破坏,身为观众的我还真想把我隔壁的烟灰缸丢过去...

可是如果没有他们,韩剧就不好看了.....男女主角必需用"爱"排除万难,把他们逼向墙角,甩尽眼泪和大喊:"oppa! oppa! sarangheiyo! wei gu deh? wei yo? chu got soh!!! e...e...err....!!!"
当他们这样的时候,就满足了观众的变态心理,白马王子与公主终于在一起了,而配角们都会突然领悟"真谛"和大方接受......现实中,他们都会泼主角们镪水...

So sad it's almost tragic.

毕业考结束,考得不对...
有一半不及格,很不爽,不爽到......想...想变爽..?..

p.s you know you love me, XOXO.

I am So Horny

I dunno y,I'm so horny all the time.
Maybe it's the graduation thing gettin on my nerve.
I juz wanna like watch dramas n movies n porns to forget the coming exam,the Judgement day.10 answer sheets,will do the judging of my 3 years study or whatever it is.

I act totally cool but I'm actually freaking the fuck out.
Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit  or  shits.
I dun wanna leave high school,but I'm actually kinda excited about it.


I dunno what I'm thinkin but is college really necessary? Well,since 90% of high skul graduates r going, it kinda does.
But I wanna juz get a job n earn money then go on travelling.

I wanna scream on the highest spot of Machu Picchu.
Surfing at the beaches in California.
Tanning under the sun of Bali.
Explore the subway system in New York.
Backpacking in wherever and being forced to not shower over a week.

And I dun think I can do all that with packages.

Oh my god! I'm not even graduated yet and I'm talkin all this shit here.
Exams really kill ppl.

I dun wanna start everything witn an "I".

I...oh shit, Idid it again.

So mess up I am.
Whatever,I don't care.
Hey,what if I purposely fail my exam and that'll leave me no choice so I can do all those things?
Brilliant but Nah...life is too short,so why rush to to dream instead of take the longest  way around?

We all end up dead either way,so fuck it.
I personally think that to die is the greatest adventure of my life.Bcuz I'm dying every second and everyone does too.
But no one lives like dying,everyone juz so concern about what other ppl think,it's how the world works.

When we graduated frm primary skul,what then?
probably 40 plus days frm nw, what now?
After 3/4 years of college,what then?

Life is a bitch,and it's fantastic.




P.S I'm seriously thinking about pursuing writing shit as a future carreer of mine.

The day of Silent

上个星期学校假期，正是个欠打的假期...
无所事事又无聊透顶的我，除了睡当然就是咬咯...
结果咬到牙龈痛...就拼命忍了...真的痛到发烧发痒发癫，fa!
我就告诉我妈说：妈！我终于懂你生我时候的痛了！
（妈：省点吧！）
为了让我从发狂的情绪冷静下来，我只好转成无声状态。

所以假期里，从一个每晚聊skype的我变成每天开着skype看着天花板呆子；
又从每天6餐（早餐，午餐，晚餐，下午茶，宵夜在加通宵妈麽）变到每天两餐；
从午餐晚餐2碗饭加1碗汤再加点心零食变到半饭加汤...+_+

9月5日    星期一
因我因不舒服而没去上课，
晚上我回学校，带着无语的心情回宿舍。
hand不在，感觉osyter好像想跟我讲话，
但他知道他会好对着一道墙讲话,
就感觉他好像很无奈将...

9月6日   星期二
从早上到下午，都感觉时间过得好慢，
就觉的是不是是最近的天气是不是太热把我给闷晕了，
结果当然就不是。
我发现我好像很陶醉于沉默了，
静静看着周遭说发生的事。
除了陶醉，也很开心不用站起来回答问题。

9月7日   星期三
我依然是如此。
在上课的时候，
有个人问我：你开嘴不怕口臭啊？！
我：不用紧，我有刷牙。你一直开嘴不怕发霉啊？
他：不怕，我都没刷牙的...+_+
我发现原来时间很慢过时因为说话，
我平常把太多的时间放在聊天了,
随着减少说话，时间也变多了。
所以换作是做我后面的那个的话，
她应该很快就闷死咯！
我不说就不说，但在晚间自习时，
我却被一个人弄到很想对他说话，
他真的有种让我很想说话冲动...
还好还是忍下来了。

9月8日   星期四
我心里面开始有一种像是感觉还是什么的，
它会让我想表达事情的时候，提醒或阻止我说话，
让我觉得说话时错的那样...
我就开始觉得应该够了，
这时间已足够让我思考很多事了。
我想如果继续这样下去，
迟早有一天，早上起来时，
我会发不了声音，
从此患上心理障碍型哑巴了...

9月9日   星期五
我终于结束了几天的沉默，
说起来也真好笑，
我说起话来竟然会觉的很不习惯...
这真是一个很不错的玩法，
或者是一个很好的冷静方法。
此经验，我永生难忘。

Questionable questions being questioning

Why do we have to make everything perfect?
I mean,try to make things perfect?

does choice define identity?
if it were, does it mean that being a teen mum makes you a MILF?

I never chose where I belong, my choices brought me where I am.
Because I never get to choose. We never get to choose.
I mean, come on, let's face it.If you're dumb,ugly,low self-esteem,freak-acting and shit...if you wanna be my friend,you can go fuck urself.

Lady gaga sings about identity, everyone born on the right track and it's ok to be who we are.
But the thing is,it's not ok when others hate you for who u r.
What if one day I go all "naruto - running " like BOSS ?

We pretend we don't pretend.

How would you introduce urself when making frens?

No one tells the truth.
If u wan me to be honest next time I'd be like: "Hi,my name is Wong Loong Hean, you can call me Hand but don't expect me to give u a handjob.And I don't think ppl give a shit about me,are we done talking? cuz I'm about to fuck off."

People like to show off,you browse facebook looking at others' happy life, well, it's not always what it seems.
Maybe the one you've been jealous of has a tears souked pillow that can grow mushroom.

I'm a bit getting use to the swearing thing...I don't knw why...but it felt good everytime i say it and I fucking don't care what u think...if u wanna say something,well, SHUT THE Front door.

I'm a twat sometime.


P.S    If you see me getting smaller, don't be grieving,I've got the right to disappear.